So still thinking of prayer in good times and bad times.
When your child is in the hospital bed, you turn to God. I'd say it's easy, but it's not... but where else do you turn?
When you're in the "good times" and everything is great, you find good stuff to thank God for. Need help? Follow the sermon outline from last Sunday.
When you're in between?
When your child isn't in the hospital. But life isn't "good."
When it's ceased to be a crisis because it's just normal life for you.
When your child copes by squishing herself between the storm door and the main door. And screams hysterically when you insist she go all the way in because it's 15 degrees.
And that isn't really a crisis because it's every week, but it isn't "good" either.
When you're in the waiting game of "is this another real crisis?" When there's another specialist on the horizon. When there's another test, and you're torn between wanting to know for sure, and yet terrified of what it might reveal, and at the same time... you really just don't want your kid to have the test.
And you know many other people who have it much worse than you... and better than you... and they all find themselves in the same boat. Crisis is normal. Normal is crisis.
How do you keep God in that?
Where is God in that?
I prayed today, sitting on my child's bed. Holding her stuffed animals that have been faithful in every hospital bed she's been in.
And I told God this sure didn't feel very loving. And this sure didn't feel very good. And I really just want my kid to be healthy, and pain free, and develop normally, vehicles to run, and the bank account to be plentiful, and life to just get and stay boring.
Rock of ages. Rock. Of the ages. He doesn't change. He doesn't move. He says He's good, therefore He is. He says He's love, therefore He is. His purposes are sure, steadfast through all generations.
"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock." - Is. 26:3-4
It doesn't say your life is easy, or good, or nice. It has to do with the mind... what it's focused on... what its foundation is.
And that's a rock you can build on. That's stable through the crisis. That's stable in the crisis that becomes your normal. That's stable on the average days and the good days and the bad days and the Mondays and the Thursdays.