My mind is spinning, I'm researching symptoms and conditions and treatments. And my gut is once again telling me there's a problem. It hasn't been too far off base yet... and this time, the treatment scares me.
I don't know what to pray for. I don't know if I should pray that this is just a mysterious pain that goes away and we have a completely normal MRI. Or if I should pray that there is a tethered cord that explains everything and can be surgically corrected. Or if I should pray for something more typical like a syringomyelia that can also be surgically corrected.
I found myself frustrated, stressing out because I can't decide what's the best option. And then I realized... I love the songs "Bring the Rain" and "Praise You In This Storm." But when the opportunity presents itself, when the rain comes, and I'm facing a storm... I start stressing, and worrying, and getting upset because I don't know what to pray for.
What exactly I pray for shouldn't matter. Because what I should be praying is "Thy will be done." For strength, peace, patience, wisdom.
For when we pray, God answers. And sometimes, we don't like how He answers.