Friday, September 20, 2013

Five Minute Friday: She

She.  Safe. Healthy. Empowered.

That's what the book said.

She. Stressed. Harried.  Exhausted.

That's the reality.

She.  The very word brings to mind so many roles, so many places and relationships in which she is supposed to be.  Mother. Daughter. Wife. Friend.  So many areas to fail.

The dishes aren't done, the dirty laundry is piled and the clean hasn't been put away, supper made the smoke alarm go off. The children have snot down to their chin and one has crayon fragments in her diaper while the other attacks the door like a tiger trying to get out of the cage she's been locked in all week. Out of touch with friends, not doing a good job at making new ones. Family in shambles.  Spouse neglected and misunderstood.

She.

She wonders if it's like this for everyone.  If it's just her that's messed up this badly.  If things will ever change.

The brown and desolate miles surrounding bear down into her very soul.  And she weeps.  She gives in and allows the gloom to spill forth, finally acknowledging that she's not okay. She's not as strong as she needs to be.  She's not at home here, and she despairs of ever really finding home.

He makes me lie down in green pastures.  
He leads me beside still waters. 
He restores my soul.  

She. Secure.  Held.  Embraced.  In the love of her Father.

STOP

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Still on my kindle... hence my absence the last two weeks.  Within a month... keyboard! I hope!

3 comments:

  1. Beautiful words Stephanie. I understand them.

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  2. Thanks for your moving post, Stephanie. How often we feel alone in our struggles. How freeing it is to admit to them and allow ourselves to be held by Him and others He has placed in our lives. Blessings to you. Stopping by from FMF.

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  3. I know the stressed, harried, exhausted well! I live with her too! :)
    But despite the chaos and the crazy it is so good to remember that "She. Secure. Held. Embraced. In the love of her Father." Thank you for that beautiful reminder (and know that you are not alone!)

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